Happy New Year my friends and students. May we all continue to meet change, the expected and unexpected, with Grace in 2018.
As many of you know I took the month of August off to gather my thoughts about whether or not I would continue to teach yoga or move on and pursue other things. I, like many seasoned yoga teachers, had become disillusioned, bored and totally exhausted with the practice and the nature of public classes and studio operation. I was totally questioning it all. Am I actually teaching yoga? Can I continue to sustain myself as a teacher? Do I even want to? I was losing motivation, the endless marketing and flogging of my work felt exhausting. When was the last time I published a newsletter? I was tired physically, mentally and lacking inspiration.
So, I hopped into my car, packed my tent and started driving. Loose plans, nothing firm just rolling and doing my best to avoid the fires and smoke. I connected with friends and family, visited my community at the Salt Spring Center of Yoga and spent 5 amazing days all by myself. Took a few yoga classes and was again reminded that Hot Power Yoga makes me kinda grumpy. I considered my options, maybe I’ll go back to school? I have a growing interest in hospice and Death Doula work. Maybe I should just go back to some kind of administration work... maybe, maybe, maybe. Wrapping things up at the studio would take at least 6 months, any courses that interested me would begin in September 2018 sooooo, back to teaching yoga. At least for awhile.
This past September I again put the classes on sale and thought well, lets just see what happens. Since then I have become busier than I have ever been. The public classes are stable, folks come and they go as they always have. What has changed is the number of private clients I now am serving. Around my scheduled classes I am now teaching Chair Yoga three days a week plus 1-3 extra hours daily working with people one to one. I am now teaching Monday through to Saturday. Yikes!
I have seen clients for injury rehabilitation, for management of depression and anxiety, PTSD, pain or just because they prefer a learning environment that is catered to their individual needs. This is so exciting!! This work has challenged me in new ways, it is keeping me engaged and has re-inspired me pursue ongoing training that will support working as a yoga teacher beyond public classes. I have already gotten my feet wet by taking courses in pain management, yoga for trauma and therapeutics. There are some new and exciting things being offered out there in Yogaland that address my personal and professional growth so I’ll be carving out time for further education in 2018.
So what will change look like as it relates to Sun and Sage Yoga? The first thing I have to address is personal burn out. This past year was one of the most challenging years I have faced so far. Many of you are aware that managing depression is a reality for me. You saw the result of my accumulated stress and the cosmic push for self care last winter and spring that lead to my pursuit of healing in Peru.
By the way.... thank you again for the love and support I received.
I have faced (and will continue to face) some personally painful scenarios that are out of my control. I need to be available and strong for what is ahead. I must address sustainability.
What has to happen? I will no longer be selling 90 minute class cards. However, these classes currently running on Monday and Wednesday evenings will remain until the end of June 2018, I will offer the current schedule until then. Those of you dedicated to the 90 minute classes can move to 60 minute cards plus $2. My intention is to no longer work on Mondays in the future. I will be working Tuesday to Saturday instead of Monday to Saturday. I am considering moving the Hatha Flow class currently offered on Monday nights to a Friday night. Nothing is set in stone, yet. I have absolutely loved teaching this Monday night class, many of you have been attending regularly since it was birthed in 2009. My hope is that whatever unfolds in terms of public classes will still serve you.
2017 taught me that I can’t do it all and remain healthy. It has also taught me that the universe has plans for us that we can’t predict. This past year the message was clear, “Tanya, you are doing what you are supposed to be doing, Tanya, your energy is limited so things must change.” So I’m embracing change. The exact details of how this is going to look haven't yet been made clear but I’m ready, I’m open and I’m excited.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart to those of you that support me. Whether it is by regular or intermittent attendance. Or your kindness in word of mouth. Sun and Sage will remain and so will I.
Much Love, Tanya